Life has been good for the past few days. Well, not really, only some part of it.
Great. Eleven days ‘til our SEVEN months. I swear it felt longer than that. Haa. I love the fact that he tries his best to be with me everyday. He changed but for the best. We are more open to each other now though were still learning things about each other. But I can surely say were STRONGER. <3
There are times that I just want to talk to you and tell you how much I hate everything you do. I want to tell you all of your mistakes. But the problem is you think you know everything and you think whatever your doing is ALWAYS right. Well, let me tell you this. If what you are doing now is right, then why am I hurt? Why does it feels like, life is so unfair to me? How come we do not have the connection that every father&daughter supposed to have? How come life is too hard for me. You know, you should have think about the consequences of your decisions. I hope you care more of what I feel that what your son feels and wants. We all know you should have known better, but you chose to make all those dumb decisions and just go live your life like there is no tomorrow. I really hate the fact that you waste TOO much money for something HE wants and DO NOT EVEN NEED AT ALL. You are unfair. You never care about what I feel. I still hate you from what you did last week. I was really hurt. Why do you make it so difficult for me to interact with you? Why do you do all this stupid things? In short, WHY ARE YOU SO UNFAIR?
Our connection is back, kinda. I am happy for whatever my decision was. I am happy that the connection with you is not as bad anymore. I am happy that you gave me a chance. Again, thank you and as what I told you, I will be here ALWAYS.
Hatred. I feel it every time I see you. I cannot believe I am still hurt for whatever happened and it made me think and realize how stupid I am for doing whatever I did. I should have thought about it. Yeah, I am stupid. Why do you have to be so fake though? I will never forget that, it will be stuck in my head for awhile, and I will make sure NOT to do that again. That was a pretty dumb move. Though I cried for whatever happened. But its alright, its over now.
A month and a week til SUMMER. I am excited though I know that I will have 3 summer projects.
Eventhough life has been tough for me. I am still thankful for what I have. I know there are reasons why I have to go through this. I know there are explanations to all this. I know there will be answers to my questions and I know each and everytime life is not being nice to me, HE is there to support me and make me stronger and keep me going through my very worst times. Thank you for everything. Life has been tough to me, But I know I can go through this as long as I AM WITH YOU. You make me happy. Thank you so much. I LOVE YOU! <3